One year ago today I held my mother in my arms as she took her last breath. I am so very sad right now and have no words, but this quote from an unknown author says what I feel in my heart right now...
How do we let a mother go?
How do we say "I'm ready now to go on without you"?
How can we ever have a clue of what that really means?
All of a sudden the moment is upon us, and there's no turning back.
And then we know what grief is...and guilt and love and things undone.
Try to prepare and we will fail in some way, be it subtle or looming.
But with time there is peace too.
Peace and acceptance and overwhelming love.
Waves and waves of conflicting emotion,
And laughter too,
and memories we hadn't bothered lately to recall come flooding back in shared company..
A part of you has passed away, but much is carried everyday within me, and will as long as I am here.
Everyday I'll celebrate in some way, just by the virtue of how you shaped my life,
The absolute and incredible fortune that I knew you.
As a mother and as a friend
How do we let a mother go?
How do we say "I'm ready now to go on without you"?
How can we ever have a clue of what that really means?
All of a sudden the moment is upon us, and there's no turning back.
And then we know what grief is...and guilt and love and things undone.
Try to prepare and we will fail in some way, be it subtle or looming.
But with time there is peace too.
Peace and acceptance and overwhelming love.
Waves and waves of conflicting emotion,
And laughter too,
and memories we hadn't bothered lately to recall come flooding back in shared company..
A part of you has passed away, but much is carried everyday within me, and will as long as I am here.
Everyday I'll celebrate in some way, just by the virtue of how you shaped my life,
The absolute and incredible fortune that I knew you.
As a mother and as a friend
10 comments:
Big hug to you.
Kristin, your photo today is breathtaking!!!! The poem, and your sentiments are heart wrenching and comforting all at the same time. So very true. I will add this poem to my mother's poem collection.
hugs....
Gorgeous image and beautiful words. I remember when you posted on Clickinmoms for help with an image of your Mom and Randi, just about a year ago. From that moment on, I've been touched by the depth of your love for your family. You were fortunate to have your Mom, and she was fortunate to have you <3
Great BIG HUGS to you!
This photo leaves me speechless.
*HUGS* my friend!
I'm so sorry about your mom. Cherish the memories. Sending you a virtual hug!
So sorry (((Kristen))). I promise the hard memories get replaced with the cherished ones as time goes by.
So sorry. The first two years after my father died were torture. I told my sister in the third year that it's a lie, time does not heal all wounds--now into our 5th year without him I can say it does. But that third year carved a cavern in my heart. Praying you find happiness in memories of her and the blessing she was to you. God bless.
What a great photo for today! May you continue to celebrate her life!
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