I spent the day at my Mom's house, going through things, sorting, repacking things I want to save, letting go of the things I don't need to keep. I did a fair amount of crying. I ran into a beautiful woman who lost her father recently who shared some wonderful words of wisdom with me. We cried together. I'm sad today. My finger and wrist joints started aching really bad about 4 or 5 days ago. I've had to take aspirin the last two days just to get some relief. I made an appointment with the Doctor; I'm not worried but wonder if I should be? The kids went to Friday Night Fun at the gym with Michael tonight. The house is very quiet. I usually welcome time here alone because it gives me time to think and get things done, but tonight I keep wandering around, not sure what to do with myself, so I thought I'd come here and work on the project that's helped take me to another place for the last 70 days.
I couldn't bring myself to take a picture today, but I did find this photo earlier when I was going through things at Mom's house. It was taken at my Grandmother's memorial service about 15 years ago. My Mom didn't like her picture taken, but she was in rare form this day and smiled for several pictures. This is one of my favorite photos of the two of us together. It makes me happy and sad all at the same time...
I couldn't bring myself to take a picture today, but I did find this photo earlier when I was going through things at Mom's house. It was taken at my Grandmother's memorial service about 15 years ago. My Mom didn't like her picture taken, but she was in rare form this day and smiled for several pictures. This is one of my favorite photos of the two of us together. It makes me happy and sad all at the same time...
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It is easy to see in this photo that you are mother and daughter. What a sweet photo it is. It is so HARD to go through a mother's things after they are gone. Since my mom lived with us for ten years before she passed away, I already had a mountain of stuff stacked in containers downstairs...and I still have not gone through them. I think it would be harder to have a home to clear out and some kind of a time limit pressing on you. Bless your heart. (((hugs))) coming your way. Tears are good...let them come. I think it's easier on us than holding everything in. I still have days when I get excited about something and want to run home to tell mom about it....and then I cry. Other days she seems so close... I see her in the mirror... I hear her voice when I talk to my dogs the very same way she did to hers. This morning when I sang a little horsie song to my granddaughter and bounced her on my knee, I remembered my mother doing this very thing with every one of my children. Sometimes, when I am sewing or making something she loved to make, it's her hands I see. I have to think...she is not so far away afterall. She's a part of me. Hang in there...it does get easier.
I forgot to answer your question about the karate photo. I discovered just a few days ago that the white vinyl fence at my son's houes, is like a giant reflector! I used no flash, and over exposed just a tiny bit. I didn't have to do a thing to that photo but remove one ugly line on the driveway, and crop it.
I can only imagine how you feel and I am so sorry for your loss. I'm also very happy that you have this photo of the two of you. Definitely something you will always treasure. *hugs*
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I've had a few friends who have lost their mothers and it just doesn't seem natural at this age. I can't imagine your pain, but hope you can find peace and solace in the wonderful memories that you have made with her. Big hugs to you.
This is a lovely photo. I can feel the love between the two of you. I don't have appropriate words of comfort, but you are in my prayers. Hugs, Kristin.
What a beautiful picture! You've just reminded me of how important it is to get some pictures with my mom (she avoids the camera as well) and to make a point to get in to some pics my boys as well. I am truly sorry for your loss!
Kristin, may you be blessed with fabulous memories like this one you captured here! You are both beautiful women, and I know that your mother is looking down on all of you and keeping you all in her thoughts! She's your guardian now, from above, and it's always so special to relinquish your fears, concerns, anxieties and let things happen because you know someone special is guiding you now!
I can see why the picture means a lot to you. Hugs.
Hugs, Kristin! You look just like her. It's a good reminder to me to take more pictures with my mom.
What a wonderful photo to have. It truly says so much. I echo everyone else's sentiments too xxx
What a sweet picture of the two of you. You can definitely tell you are mother/daughter and the love between you is obvious. And I'm just going to go with what everyone else said, since I can't say it any better than they did. {Hugs}
This photo has so much life to it! I can feel it and hear the laughter. Sometimes laughter is the way some deal with a difficult situation they are enduring. I tend to be that way. I'll cry and laugh at the same time even though laughter might not be the most expectant reaction. It's so good you are going through these emotions. You are healing and crying and laughter are so good for you to get out what you are feeling. I told you my mother was here and we both started crying as well at the supper table the other night. I am the one who will be responsible for things after they pass, well she brought that up again because they had made some changes and wanted me to know. Years ago it didn't seem to hit me as hard as it does now. Tears came a flown....I hope you found some closure, had a few good laughs about those wonderful memories you had and some tears to help you through. Take care!! Hugs to you! ;)
What a great picture of you & your mom. Thinking about you & your journey. Here's a big hug!
What a nice photo of you and your mom. Prayers are being said for you that you may find comfort and peace.
Kristin, thank you so much for your kind words you wrote on my blog on Friday. It means a lot to me for someone that I only know through a blog to say such sweet things. It brought tears to my eyes to read your post as well. It is so hard to lose a loved one no matter if we are expecting it or not. I am thinking and praying for you and I hope that you will always look at this picture and smile at how wonderful your mom was. I know you will always miss her, but she will always be with you in your heart. I wish I could give you a big hug right now!
Big Hugs! I can totally understand where you're coming from. We have not gone back to my parent's house since my mom passed away in Jan. We need to get back up there and start going through things, but I can't imagine doing it. It's going to be tough. No doubt.
This picture is a definite treasure. Keep it close at hand. The last time I was home I brought back some pix of my parents. I have one small framed one that I keep out. Like you, it makes me happy and sad at the same time.
love that picture. what a neat treasure to come across!
Oh, Kristin, This is such an incredible picture of you and your mom!...and just think it of it.... this photo was taken on the day of your grandmother's memorial...so that means that it was on the day of your mother's mother's memorial ...and just look at your mother..you wrote it yourself ... your mother was happy and smiling. So what does that tell you? Your mother would want you to be happy and smiling also. So... stand like a night club bouncer at your door of your thought, and let in only in only the good and happy memories....and detect and reject all the unhappy thoughts and memories of decline and sickness that would try to rob you of today's happiness. With much love, Bebe
what a great picture sis....love you and her...
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